Our thoughts are everything.

When I am the most conscious of my thoughts is when I am trying to sleep. Or just on the cusp of waking up. I hear them running around in my mind. All the things that I didn’t accomplish the day before. All the things that I need to accomplish the next day and so forth. It is a never-ending reality of thoughts. And let me tell you that they don’t come with a positive twist to them at all. It is always the fear of succeeding the fear of failure. Ever since I stopped drinking. I can now notice these thoughts. Whereas before they just ran around and around in my head without me even noticing them. The only way I knew that I was having them was by how I felt. That was not fun at all. This is how I have been feeling this past year. It comes with the inability to get out and socialize with people. I know we have all felt it.

Being at home with one’s thoughts is a difficult task to navigate through. Once you are “awake”. It’s very difficult to go back to being a “sheep”. Just because one knows about the “Matrix” does not make life easier. It’s actually the opposite. I can never go back to the way things were. I can never have a so-called “normal job”, and somehow be ok with that. There is always a price for knowledge. The price is “knowing”. The cost is your thoughts.

So dive into the experts like Lewis Howes. Jack Canfield and so on. Get some help with these thoughts so that they don’t run away with you! Loving you all Lilli.